I am hoping she meant I have changed for the better!
I want to make it clear as to why I think I have changed. It is not necessarily Church of the Highlands, though this wonderful church pointed me in the right direction.
Quite simply, it is prayer that has changed me.
My family has been going regularly to church now for 11 months. I admit, we were pretty proud of ourselves. Patting ourselves on the back. “Look, honey! We finally go to church like everyone around us! Isn’t that great?”
And it IS great!
But please don’t think we have been sitting over here like saints. In fact, my children have been in more trouble in the past six months than they have been in their entire lives. Serious trouble. We are talking “leaving flyers with cartoon penises drawn on them on the doorsteps of homes in our brand new neighborhood” trouble. For real.
I don’t know how I would have gotten through these “incidences” without the little nuggets of wisdom I have picked up at church. Let’s just say there has been a lot of forgiveness and grace going on at the Levy home.
But it has been the time spent in prayer that has brought about the transformation I am feeling and other people are noticing. It is a feeling of fullness, contentment, and protection like I have never known my entire life. And here’s why- through prayer, I have established a relationship with God.
My church often talks about how important it is to have a relationship with God. But I never really got it. How do you establish a relationship with someone you can’t see or feel or sometimes wonder if He even exists? It always sounded crazy to me.
But spending 20 minutes every day pouring your heart out to someone will create a relationship. It doesn’t matter that that someone isn’t sitting right next to you or on the other end of a phone call. In fact, I think that is WHY my relationship with God is so good. I don’t have to worry about Him judging me or running off and telling His friends what I said. I can tell Him anything. All of my secrets. All of my needs. All of my fears. It is like the cheapest form of therapy ever.
I used to think being a Christian was all about who could be the “most religious”- who could go to church the most, read the Bible the most, join the most Bible studies. But that is not it at all. Life is about relationships. Connections. And I have realized this applies to our spiritual life as well.
Whether you are a believer or not, I encourage you to spend a few minutes in introspection every day. What are you thinking? What are you feeling? What do you need? Just put it out there. If anything, it will bring great clarity to your life. Call it meditation if you need to. You’ve got nothing to lose.